My meds are worked out for now. One good thing that came out of that horrible experience two weeks ago (see my last post) is that I was able to cut my Ativan dose in half since I had already gone through all the withdrawals. I will have to cut it out completely before I start cycling but that shouldn't be too hard since it is only half a miligram at this point. I will cut it in half next week and then cut it out altogether. I am taking ten miligrams of Lexapro and will continue on with that permanently. I am going to see my psychiatrist next week to get clearance from her for my RE. They want a letter stating what my treatment will be during my pregnancy. I will keep close contact with her so that if my dosage needs to be upped at all we can do that. I hope the appointment goes well; I think it should.
Next Friday I am getting a saline sonogram as well as all the results from our genetic counselor. We will also have all of our other test results back by then. So far, I think we are looking at slight MFI (low morph) but considering that they have said people can often get pregnant naturally with that I am feeling a diagnosis of "unexplained infertility" in our future. But I guess we will see and know by next Friday!!!! Then we will also get to determine whether we are going to go with IUI or IVF. Honestly, I'm hoping for IVF. I want the embryos for the future so that we don't have to go through this shit again when we want to try for a second child, especially considering my age.
This is all very exciting. I think, for the first time in two years, things are finally starting to look up for us, at least a little bit. I don't want to jinx anything, and I'm sure it won't be the last time we experience hard times, but I have to say that these past two years very nearly broke us (as people, not our marriage--that's now stronger than ever). I feel like if I can live through all of that then I can live through anything.
