Wow, it has been a while. Things at work have become so chaotic and hectic and busy that I barely have time to eat my lunch let alone blog or keep up on TB! I am at school until at least 5 every day and still have so much work to do. All school teachers and students have a four day weekend (hooray!) so here I am, finally able to update!
Yesterday I graduated from the RE!!! I am so freaking excited I can hardly stand it. My sweet little bean has a hearbeat of 167 beats per minute and is measuring right on track at 8 weeks!!! I got to stop taking the Estrace yesterday and have only one more week of Endometrin suppositories!!!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!!!! I am so excited to be done with that crap. I am very grateful I got in to see the OB I wanted to use. I can't see her until 11/25, but that's okay; I really wanted to use her so I'm just relieved that I got in at all! I had these visions of them telling me they weren't accepting new OB patients at this time. Since I have been exclusively seeing my pelvic pain specialist (who is an OB) for the past year and a half I had to find someone new now that I am pregnant. The OB I chose is one that I saw in January of 2013 when I was searching for someone who could help me with my pelvic pain. While she couldn't help me with it, she was very sympathetic and kind and I really liked her practice. She is a holistic practitioner and uses herbs and aromatherapy to complement allopathic stuff and also specializes in natural birth (unless otherwise indicated, of course--she can/will do epidurals, c-sections, etc. if necessary).
If I could, I would have a home birth. I would love nothing more than to have a midwife come to my house, have my husband catch the baby and then curl up in my own bed and nurse by baby. However, I live a solid 35 minutes away from the nearest hospital and also, being on meds myself, I just feel that I would need the extra support that a hospital would offer. Since there are no birthing centers in NJ, the hospital is kind of my only other option. I feel that even though her practice is about 40 minutes from my house (everything is 40 minutes from our house--we live in the mountains out in the sticks) and the hospital she delivers at is an hour from our house, this will be the closest thing to having what I want for prenatal care as well as birthing. She has since gone into private practice and I am just absolutely in love with everything I have read about her practice and everything I see on their website. I really think it will be a perfect fit. Plus the hospital she delivers at has private rooms, tubs for water labor and a really good reputation for maternity care. I have known since I met her that I wanted to use her for prenatal care, but just to get all the information I did research on other hospitals that might be a little closer. The only thing I found that I really liked at all was a holistic birthing unit in a different major hospital, but that hospital is just so crazy busy and also my SIL had a horrible experience there so I just decided to go with my gut and stick with what I know.
So I am very excited to see her in a few weeks. Mostly, I am excited to be just a regular pregnant person in one more week!!! No more hormone meds!!! For now, I am just trying to keep up at work and be not so tired. That last part is not working; I'm exhausted beyone belief right now. I am so lazy I can barely peel myself off the couch by the time I get home. Eating is kind of hard too; all this kid wants is carbs and cheese. But I'm working on trying to get the veggies in there. I can do it if I add starches somehow (grains, beans, etc.)
Also I think we are going to tell my dad and stepmom and MH's family on Thanksgiving. I had wanted to try and hold out for Christmas, but 1) they will immediately know something is up when I don't walk in the door and start pouring wine 2) I don't know when we will get to see everyone in person again since we are going to see my mom and aunts for Christmas. I am adament about telling family in person whenever possible. Plus I already can't use my belt anymore. I will be eleven weeks at Thanksgiving. While it's still a tad bit earlier than I would have liked, I think it will be best and fine. I will tell my aunts in person on Christmas (my mom and stepdad already know). After that it's open season. Cool.
This blog started out in 2012 as me wanting to reach other women who were dealing with clinical depression and trying to start a family. I wrote a lot about that. Then my health spun completely out of control in so many ways that the blog died because I was really, really sick. I deleted most of my old posts as they are just not relevant anymore. I have given this blog new life and a broader spectrum. I still want to start that family, so join me and see how it happens!